Life in an Agency

You know what, quit saying I'm back and what so ever, because let's just straight to the point alright? haha!

So my life right now is pretty good, and also physically pretty bad?.. Well we do get something bad in return to have something good at hands right? Not everything is for granted, so I appreciate everything I have right now even though is tough!

Have been working at this Agency for about 5 months, and things just go pretty good as I expected! Not just that I get to save some money from my income, I also get to buy stuffs that I long wanted! What else? Clothings, Foot wears, A pair of new glasses, Some accessories though.. But yes! I'm still aiming for technologies babe!!!

Currently I am really looking forward to get myself an iPhone, 3gs or 4? the 4 has reception problem and also heat problem, it's not so stable, so I might as well get 2nd hand 3gs? If there's anybody from Malaysia selling 3gs right now, please let me know here alright? Cause it is so hard to find one!!

Next I may need to build a new PC, first of all is for gaming of course, and as well for what I'm gonna do in the future! Designer!! So I as well need a Pen Tablet!!! Hopefully I get a chance to go to a digital mall because I hardly find someone to bring me there or accompany me, because I don't know how to get there!

And now back to the Agency stuff, yeah everything is cool there, but it's a hell of a struggle when it comes to rushed workflow! My first ever working hours record is 24 HOURS NON-STOP! Should I be proud of myself or what? haha! Well it's really tough, working with 2 teammates, struggling to get the work done, nagging around about how tired we were, and overall it's a good experience! I prepared a can of Redbull with me, in case this situation happens, and it did! It helped me a lot to boost up my energy! THANK YOU REDBULL!!

So that's all I wanted to say, conclusion is, I'm glad I'm currently working in this agency, because not just I learned about the advertising workflow, but as well learned about how the real world is and how to communicate with people better.

I'm Back

It's been almost a "century" I've not blogged, and today I really feel like expressing myself here.

So first of all, i hope u readers have not given up reading my posts!

I've started working for 2 months already. working as a DTP Artist, something to do with press ads and final artworks. Well, it's a tough job though. Although i get to sit tight on my chair with my computer desk doing artwork stuff, but it is still a bomb on the head when it comes to facing clients' request and supervisors' guide. What else can i say? I'm just working for experience and exploring the social life, earning some income, get myself a car in future and as well start a new lifestyle!

It all started very well, it's fun, it's comfort, and had loads of laughs! But nowadays bad things just pop into my head, deeper and deeper.. darker and darker. I start to wonder, why is it my dark side of lifestyle came back to me? I thought of getting rid of it, but it couldn't let go! It's like my shadow that never leaves my trace. I started thinking childish, sensitive, and very unhappy. Sometimes i may smile for reasons that is funny during lunch with colleagues, or just feeling in a good mood. But after all those, the dark thoughts came back to me again.

Meeting a lot of people there, nice and kind, but their age are far more distance than mine. It's like someone build a solid wall between me and the guys in the office, I just couldn't get well with them! Maybe I'm just thinking too much? Maybe not? I do not know. But somehow that kind of feeling just drives me crazy at times, until i couldn't concentrate well in my career.

During the second month of my job, it was my graduation day. It was 18th July, Sunday. It is great to know that I am actually graduating, but as soon as i think of college, i think of my classmates, and it leads me to unhappiness. Maybe some are good to me? I hope so. Before 18th, I was suppose to go to college to collect my gown. I went there, and well of course no classmates are there because even if they see me they will just disappear or walk pass me like they never noticed. Until i met a coursemate, a very friendly girl. She is quite nice to me as a friend, cute, funny, what else? Friendly of course! so we met after the collection, and we walk to the canteen and we split up because she had an appointment with someone. So there i go, being alone again! I made an appointment with a friend at college on that day's yesterday. at 12 pm. i waited, and he never show up! I called, it can't go through! WTF?! Then until 1pm, he called and apologise for shutting off his phone while he was doing practice with his classmates. I was like, WTF MAN? I THOUGHT WE MADE AND APPOINTMENT!! So just forget it, I went to the nearby Jusco alone, for a walk and meal there.

On that very day, 18th July, i brought my mom and sister and her lousy BF which his brain does not contain the word MANNERS! Fuck your own self punk! I reached there, and no classmates seem to talk to me until i started talking to them, and they answer and stopped talking to me. Went into the hall, unlucky enough I am sitting NOT beside them, but some senior students that failed previously and came back. WTF AGAIN?! So I waited all the boring talk and ceremony until it is my turn to go up, collect the EMPTY scroll and head back down to my seat. after all graduants collected their scroll, we all leave the hall. It was raining after the ceremony, just like my mood, cold like the misty rain, without any warmth around. Even it's my graduation, i do not felt happy at all. Who knows? since not much people care about my existence, I'm born to be loner I guess?

Until now, 2 months of working, I'm getting more and more tired of emotional problems. If i have my emotional problems all settled, then I might as well feel happy to work there. There were times I can feel people do not like me joining them for lunch and dinner, or even someone dislikes me, looking down on me.

I had a new close friend there, not very close, but we almost chat every night via online. She is very nice and mature, age is way further than mine, but she can go well with me. We shared same interest at some topics, we shared problems by talking about it. Until today, I somehow felt that she does not want to me contact her via online anymore, like avoiding me or something. I don't know, maybe i was too sensitive. But she almost every night sleeps at 2am, how come whenever i online, she leaves Facebook and messenger? It gives me fear for contacting her that much. I did contact her almost everyday, she insist that it is fine to talk to me every night. But now, things change. This is reality, perhaps.

Oh ya, what else? i broke up with a girl 2 months ago. Shocking?

Sometimes something just couldn't force to fit in, or used.

But what can I say? It's over!

Just hoping that I can get rid of my stupid mind, and start focus on my career!

Goodnight everyone!

My realtion life

My college life is almost done, which is a good and bad news. I can relax, but need to work soon. REAL WORKING. i believe i can handle it. Since its the end of my 'student' life, it is time for me and the others to celebrate this joy.

Thought of having fun for this last semester, but everything seems so messed up. My assignments werent done well, exhibition sucks, weak team communication, what else? it disappoints me that my logo for the event i used and showed to the public, and i get nothing. What is wrong with those people? So they can just take away my rights for my design? And not offering me anything? Bullshit! Says there is a certificate for me, I HOPE THAT IS TRUE.

So now everything is over, i can finally release the pressure that is bothering me, and perhaps go for a gathering or have fun with my loved one. But everytime i try to meet up with these people, its hard to make them communicate with me. it really makes me feel like i'm left behind. I'm just like any other people around the world, ordinary and nice, why cant they just be nice to me? atleast understand my situation?

Everywhere i go around the street, i can see people hanging out with a large group of friends. Fun and happy, laughing all the way, playing all the way. seeing these happy groups sometimes makes me very jealous.

For my primary school friends, I've never seen them for like 10 years. They have many gatherings, but not including me. Try to contact them, they seem so COCKY and ignore. WTF man? cant they just grow up?

Secondary school for not least, i have less friends, but i still have a group of guys. So wat? for 3 years, they have gatherings for many times but not even once im there! i only get to see 2 of them, which is quite well with me. the others just make me feel that they dont wanna see me. for thi upcoming saturday, ive already ask the head of the group. hope he'll do something for it because i cant manage to contact others.

Now, college classmates, they went to somewhere fun after the exhibition without me. It hurts so much. although i cant really join them due to transport, but cant they atleast ask? problems can be solved right? its obvious they wouldnt want me to spoil the fun. or is it im thinking too much? seeing picture in facebook, im nt even in their happy photo album of our course group like "crazy with D5" or "D5 gang". is it im too tall to be with them or what? they felt pressure? should i just break my leg then?

GOD, where the hell is true friendship?

Friends

Recently I've been talkin' to one of my high school friend, Suzanne.

I talked to her on facebook, because I'm so bored at the college CITC, I just need someone to chat with. Since I've not talked to her for so long, so i decided to give it a shot.

Luckily, she replied.

We talked along many things. How am I how is she, what I'm on what she's on, and many more.

She suddenly tell me that this saturday was her Birthday party. Most of the high school friends were invited to the party. Since she was talking to me, she invited me as well. As soon as she invited me, I just felt that I shouldn't go. YES indeed I'm looking forward to see her and others, but somehow i just feel that I'm not welcomed to be there.

All of a sudden, flashing past moments were travelling through my head. Makes me think of what we did during high school, how friendly we were, things happening between us, and then BOOM, our relationship just went down like a sinking ship. Who's fault anyway? Me? or them? No one is to be blamed.

While thinking all these things, I chat along with her saying i shouldn't go, just felt that I'm not welcomed. I'm just a guy with exceeded height without any great talent or popularity. Im just normal. Simple ordinary guy that wishes so badly to have really true friends. So until then we stopped the converstion because she need to get off to work. At the moment, I was thinking, SHOULD I GO? OR SHOULDN'T??? Her house was just at Kelana Jaya, it is near though. They were all so good looking, and they went to club. Honestly I've never been clubbing before in my life. I did went into the venue but then it is not to club but to meet someone and come out for a drink.

Suzanne, thanks for willingly to talk to me, for what I've done to you in the past, that makes you so upset. I'm sorry. You;re truely a matured person, and a true friend.

2010

2010,

It's a new year, and it's a new begining.

Life changes, things changes, and some things still remains.

Well i have alot to share today, I'll just splash it all here in this post!



Well first thing, I brought a new cell phone! :)

Nothing expensive, average price but i like it!

It's the Nokia X3, nothing much but music and entertainment...
Sleeck slim slide, just felt great when i get my hands on it!


Second thing, lifestyle changes.

My parents now has a career, but it was a career that will change our life back to when i was a kid. They work as hawkers. Selling Penang style curry mee at Kota Damansara. The restaurant is called "777" cafe i guess, if you guys get to go there for meal, remember to try my parent's Curry Mee! Thank you!

Now that they are busying with the new career, my mom now is either resign from the Sheer Secret facial company, or just stick to it. If she would just keep the job, then we will have double income and our life will be much more better comparing 2009. Well 2009 is really hard for my parents, and now this hawker stall's business is going great! one day we could earn about 300-500! Plus the ingredients we need to use does not cost much, so in time, we can enjoy our life happily.

But there is a negative side. They start their hawker at 3pm everyday, so whenever i came back from college, i need to walk all the way from the Ikano to my condo. It's quite a distance and tiring because i have to walk up the hill. What can i do? well just take it as an exercise then. I seldom exercise nowadays so this should be a good thing for me to do.


Thirdly, relationship.

Relationship with my loved one is truely great, but at times, there is ups and downs.
Happy goings happens when we celebrate my bday, celebrate Xmas, Celebrate New Year's eve.
We had great meal together, we laughed, we joyed. And we watch the Avatar too! (Man that movie was awesome!)

By then, arguements do come along in relationship. Misunderstandings, too much thoughts, this is what a girl always do, think think and think. Well they always think things that is negative, not like us, the GUYS, who always thinks positive and solve problems whenever an issue is ahead of us.

She cried for days, think so badly that it makes me feel sad either. Well a guy won't easily cry isnt it? Not like Korean dramas where they just love to cry, NUTS! I'm tough so there wil be no tears before blood! (Like how chinese people said) I've tried my best to give her what she wants, giving her care everyday, and most of all, loving her deeper day by day. But sometimes arguements like this just make me feel irritated. Explaned so much at end up wouldn't listen.

Dear, if you're reading this, i wanted to tell you that i really love you, i could give you everything just to see you smile happily in front of me. Your happiness with me is my reward for loving you, and i want nothing more but only you being with me. I love you.


So that's it for now, i have nothing to share already. any further updates will be posted here soon!

Oh ya! HAPPY NEW YEAR! you have 2 years left to enjoy before we end up 2012! HAHA! :)

My Birthday 2009!!! :) (29th november)

Vivo The Curve

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Dont know what to post.

Hey guys, long time i haven been updating this site.

Many things happened and going on.

As you know what is going on with my life now...


You know what,

I kinda miss my secondary school lifestyle.

Hang out with friends,

No worries about so many things,

Fun.


Now,

I miss those guys so much.

Just hard to keep in touch with them.

I always wonder if they ever still treat me as a friend,

Or am I still in their thoughts.